So apparently I'm totally sucking at this blog things. I know it's probably a more common occurrence than one might imagine; there are probably hundreds of blogs out there that last no longer than one entry. Hey, I made it to two!
It's been about a month since work started again. This year I've felt haunted by the feeling that last year never ended, and instead it's continued to follow me around. If I remember, isn't this the kind of sentiment that was expressed at the end of Jibjab's 2008 Year in Review? Essentially, for me it means that the work that I was unable to deal with last year ended up continuing into this year. Now a month has passed, and it seems like my work will finally be finished by the end of this weekend.
I find the last sentence interesting. Perhaps this is the result of being overloaded by work: I seem to have taken a step back and distanced myself from the situation. I used to have a mantra when it came to work: no matter what, the work always gets done. I've been trying to change it after a friend pointed out that "I" is totally absent from that phrase. The work always gets done, but at the same time, because I am not actively involved in the work getting done, the mantra begins to act as an excuse for me to put work off until later. As a result, I find it interesting that after all this "hard work" to change my outlook, I am once again trusting that somehow all the work I need to finish will get finished by some work of magic.
I guess that I take a bit of solace from the fact that I am not the only person that feels these emotions. I hear from friends that they are just as much under the stress of the new year that I feel. It's reassuring, but at the same time, I wonder why the new year continues to feel disturbingly like the old.
It's been about a month since work started again. This year I've felt haunted by the feeling that last year never ended, and instead it's continued to follow me around. If I remember, isn't this the kind of sentiment that was expressed at the end of Jibjab's 2008 Year in Review? Essentially, for me it means that the work that I was unable to deal with last year ended up continuing into this year. Now a month has passed, and it seems like my work will finally be finished by the end of this weekend.
I find the last sentence interesting. Perhaps this is the result of being overloaded by work: I seem to have taken a step back and distanced myself from the situation. I used to have a mantra when it came to work: no matter what, the work always gets done. I've been trying to change it after a friend pointed out that "I" is totally absent from that phrase. The work always gets done, but at the same time, because I am not actively involved in the work getting done, the mantra begins to act as an excuse for me to put work off until later. As a result, I find it interesting that after all this "hard work" to change my outlook, I am once again trusting that somehow all the work I need to finish will get finished by some work of magic.
I guess that I take a bit of solace from the fact that I am not the only person that feels these emotions. I hear from friends that they are just as much under the stress of the new year that I feel. It's reassuring, but at the same time, I wonder why the new year continues to feel disturbingly like the old.
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